Feeling all alone

photo by Adrian Getzmann, pixabay.com

Crowded in the streets

Twisting around each other

And they seem to be happy

Even surrounded by them

I am feeling all alone!

Horns shouting loudly

Fast vehicles are passing by

Am riding on my bike

Trying to overcome the fear

This highway scares me, my dear!

Fingers are trembling

I am feeling my heartbeat

Angry men behind me

Stupid, please start your damn bike

And I want to run away!

Meri Maa , kash mai tujhse bol Pata !!!!!

I know how it feels to be different,
being alone and sad.
You have thousand words for share,
many secrets to reveal , but you afraid what if they wont understand?
So you remain silent and die inside slowly and slowly,
My poem is dedication for all those special children..




Bahut akela hu main Maa,
bahut tuta hua hu...
Hai pass tere aanchal ka sahara,
Fir v kismat se rutha hua hu....
Chahkar v tujhe nahi kah pata taklif main,
kitna akela hu,
hu kitna ajeeb main..
Lab pe aakar har baar baat rok deta hu main,
Siskata hu andar hi andar,
par kuchh nahi kehta mai..
nahi bolta ke kahi tujhe kho na du,
humesa tujhse najare churata hu,
kahi teri mamta ko main ro na du..
jab tu puchhti mujhse,
beta tu gumsum kyu rahta hai,
agar koi taklif hai to,
apni maa se kyu nahi kahta hai??
kyu dil me rakhata hai ghumo ka samandar?
kyu tadpata hai tu andar hi andar?
Kya kami ki hamne tu bol jara,
Na chup rah mere lal
ek baar tu man ki girhe khol jara.
Dil karta hai us waqt tujhe har baat bata du main,
kitna alag hu sabse,
tujhko jata du main..
tera hi ansh hokar,
tujhse kyu juda hu main,
shrap hu sabpe,
fir kyu kahti rab ki dua hu main??
Maa yeh taklif ab bardasht nahi hoti,
raat din na main sota hu,
aur na yeh aankhe hai soti...
tujhpe koi aanch na aaye,
is baat ka dar mujhe hardum hai hota,
kaash ya hota main tere jaisa,
ya paida na hota?? 

The last goodbye?

'Angel - Our Truth' by Kevin Ghoseawon
Illustration  taken from
'Angel - Fateful Encounters' by Jennifer de Bricassardt

Please let go of my hand

I’m going to where I belong

This is my last goodbye

I want you to be happy and strong

Cherish all the moments

We have spent together

Coz I will keep you in my heart

And love you forever

We’ll find our place one day

Please let me go my love

Please do me this favor

And please don’t cry for me

Your tears can’t stop my feet

I don’t belong here, honey

So please don’t cry for me

We were not fortunate enough

To fulfill our love in this life

I wanted to stay with you

Asking you to be my wife

But all dreams have shattered

Please let go of me, honey

That’s the only thing that matters:

You have to live without me!

Please let me go my love

I will always be around you

Maybe I won’t be near physically

But whenever you close your eyes

You will find me, I promise you

Please let me go my love

My heart will be with you forever

Whether it will be in a dark cold night

Or another beautiful spring morning

I won’t leave you, never ever

Please let go of me, my love,

This is not the end

I’ll be waiting for you,

Until we meet again.

Meri Aashique me tu,
is kadar fannah ho ja,
karde khud ko hawale mere,
Aur duniya se juda ho ja..
Sulag ja is kadar
jism ki chingari me tu,
Jism se rooh tak
aaj tu mere rawa ho ja..
Ban ja aisa rog,
jiski na dawa na ho koi,
Rog bhi ban ja tu iski,
tu hi iski dawa ban ja.
ban ja mere har ibadat har mannat tu,
Juban se nikli har aah ban ja,
dil se nikli tu har dua ban ja..
Jag bisra de tu mere ishq me,
Rooh ban ja is jism ki,
Aur apno se tu bewafa ban ja...
Chadhke jo na kabhi utare,
wo kasis ban ja tu,
wo nasha ban ja..
Agar maut hai saja tujhe chahne ki,
kasam teri uff na karega ye shagird tera,
Aa katl kar de apne nigaho se mujhe,
aaj tu wo saja ban ja.
bhul ja is jahan ko tu,
bas tu mera ban ja,
bas tu mera ban ja..

Tanha jo me hu
mehfil me tu bhi to nahi,
sagird hu mai tera
sab ki tarah main nahi.
dhadkta hoga dil tera
pyar ke naam pe,
subahe aas jagti hogi
mujhe pane ki
mera hi khumar hoga
tere har shaam pe.
padh ko koi prem kahani
tujhe bhi mera ehsas hota hoga,
jab bhi dekhta hoga tu
pemiyo ko
mai bhi to tere pas hota honga
ye dua tere bhi tere dil me hogi
ke mujhe tu kabhi pa jaye,
mil jaye do rahi kabhi to
kabhi mere rashte tujhse takra jaye…
jis kashti pe hai tu sawar
wo kashti hai meri bhi
agar me adhura hu yaha
to pura to tu bhi nahi…..

baato se nahi
irado se hoti hai mohbbat,
wado se nahi
saugato se hoti hai mohbbat.
kisi ko malum kya
kis bal ka naam hai ye mohbbat,
chhudwa de ghar sansar ye,
par kabhi na jhuki halato se ye mohbbat.
is janm ka nahi
sath janm ki ye baat hai ye,
na samjho aasiya bas chhota hai
aashiqo ke liye puri kaynat hai ye.
aashik wo nahi jo naap taul kar pyar karte hai,
ishq ki aag me jalte ye parwane to ,
samma ka apne umar bhar intejar karte hai.
jismo se nahi,
jajbato se hoti hai ye mohbbat…
ye mohbbat

अपनी आशाओं को खुद से जुदा होने मत देना,

खुद को कभी निराशाओं के अंधेरों में खोने मत देना ।

रखना दिल में यकीन सपने होंगे पुरे जरूर एक दिन,

खुद भले सो जाना पर अपने सपनों को कभी सोने मत देना ।।।

Na mangalsutra hai, jiski gaanth baandhe
saat janm tak hume,
na sindoor hai jo jode meri aatma tujhse.
naa saath fere hai jo kasmo ko de mayne humare,
na hume hai apno ke aashirwad ke sahare..
na sehanyi ki madhur dhun hai,
na suhag ki mangal bela.
tere mere is sangam me
tu bhi akeli hai aur mai bhi akela.
tere mere sanjog aisa hai
jaise mil rahe sagar ke do kinare,
meri aankho me tu apna sansar dekhana,
teri aankho me dekhunga me wo sapne sare,
meri aanho me tu apna sansar dekhna,
sapno ka swarg dekhna ,
khusiyo ki wo bahara dekhna.
na kar koi ghum ki koi sath na dega,
apne milan ke gawahi denge ye chand sitare,,,,…

Trishna

Na kisi k dil ke karib hu main….
Na kisi ke aankho ka noor hu..
waise to pass hai sabku6 mere,
fir v ha rkhushi se dur hoon…
Ek pal me sau baar marta hu main,
katre bhar jine ki aas na rhi dil ko mere….
Apno ki khushi ki khayir fir v,
main jine ko majboor hoon……
na kisi k dil k karib hu……… na kisi k aankho ka noor hu..
.
.
Koi nahi hai sangi mera,..
Na hi kandhe par kisi ka haath hai…..
na kisi dost ka sahara mujhko….
jo hai bas tanhai hai,
jo harpal mere sath hai….
Duniya kahti hai ajnabi jise..
Main usi naam se mashoor hoon….
na kisi k dil k karib hu…..
.
.
Spana tuta, dil v tuta….
Tuta har ek khwab hai….
sabki aankh ka tara hu fir v….
Sabko mujhpe naaj hai……
sabki ummido tale dabi hai hasti meri,
k kuchh kar k dikhaunga….
Tut gaya hu itna me….
kaise yeh bojh uthaunga…….
ki jisne kho di hai chamak apni…..
Main woh kohinoor hu………………………
Na kisi k dil k karib hu main…
na kisi ki aankho ka noor hu……….